I wish I was better at imagining and dreaming the future. Deciding to step back from my business has left a bit of a gap in my plans, and I panicked a little.
I don’t actually want to fill every minute with new goals, and it would be nice for life to unfold and reveal happy surprises without having to put quite so much effort into it. But if I try to imagine what that might look like… my mind is blank.
Visualisation doesn’t work for me as I have very poor mental imagery. So of course, I did the next best thing and turned to Pinterest. I looked at recent saves, and at a few relevant boards. I pinned whatever spoke to me. Then I looked at my selection, edited it down, and made a few notes, capturing what those images meant to me - what they represented, be it a mood or an activity. I felt a couple of things were missing from the list, so I went back and found images to match.
And there it was, after maybe an hour of browsing, saving and thinking: a simple dream for the future.
I’m sorry: I’m not going to share it. Not because it’s anything big, but rather because it’s not. It’s nothing but a very personal assortment of very simple elements.
What I will share is that it’s reminded me of what it felt like to pursue interests for their own sake. I want to let go a little: of trying to make everything meaningful, of turning everything into a job, of that weird habit of never quite taking a day off.
I got used to holding on very tightly, just in case I found myself unravelling, without the goals and the to-do lists. But there’s no need for that anymore. I just hadn't noticed yet. Panic over.
*Heads to Pinterest to image* xx